Cocaine: It could be worse!

Watching TMZ, they were discussing the fact the Zac Efron has entered rehab twice for his cocaine addiction issues. This leaded them to discuss his intense attractiveness that has only increased as he has aged. The man is a beautiful piece of art and is a pretty reasonable actor as well.  It was said on TMZ that he had issues showing up to set on “The Neighbors” with Seth Rogen, which disappoints me about him because he really could do much better than a Seth Rogan film.  I know it might seem very chick-flick-y but Charlie St. Cloud was actually not a bad movie.  I don’t cry due to movies but if I allowed myself more than the two teardrop quota in a week I have enforced, this movie would have made me squirt one or few.  Interesting that he started in the TV movie “High School Musical” with a bunch of other slightly famous Disney children. Really honestly, it seems that Zac Efron and Vanessa Hudgens are the only ones that have really done much more for themselves besides another straight to DVD romp about their character’s after story (really, Ashley Tisdale?) I can understand the fact Disney will jump through as many legal hoops to lock these kids into as many films and shows as they can turn out, and granted, work is work.  However, the nude photos of Vanessa Hudgens, although embarassing, really brought her name to the forefront of the Hollywood community’s mind. Without that exposure she would be stuck as a Disney kid and probably would have wound up molesting a foam finger on MTV.

So about this cocaine addiction…is it really that bad? I mean yes sure, drugs are bad, mmkay. But honestly, it could have been much worse and also, it could have been much more embarrassing. He wasn’t found in some bathroom snorting and blowing some random guy, he didn’t do a speedball and kill himself, he didn’t decide to make “Sharpay’s Fabulous Adventure“. Instead, he checked into rehab, quietly and discreetly and he did it for himself, not for Hollywood. The troves of celebrity wannabes and socialites that enter rehab with a slew of photogs behind them may or may not be actually suffering from an addiction but the fact is, they mostly suffer from Munchhausen’s.

Addictions – Ode to Cory Monteith

A few years ago, I spent some time at a lovely “behavioral center” across the street from Sea World. Of the various group sessions I attended, I’ve found myself continually recollecting one particular session about addictions. I remember sitting there trying to decide what I was going to share as my addiction in the group. I listened to the others, crying over stories of crack addicts, alcoholics, dope fiends, and meth heads.

I finally just said that I was addicted to hurting myself.

For weeks afterward, I shook my head as I remembered the smiling faces of the addicts. They probably wondered what a girl like me would even know about pain.

Last week, Cory Monteith was found dead from a combination of heroin and alcohol. For years, he said he had struggled from drug addiction and even stopped by a few rehabs along the way to his rise to fame in Glee. But even with the help of on screen and off screen love, Lea Michele, the act of injecting and imbibing drugs to feel better about himself became too much for him to ignore.

Cory Monteith, gone too soon.

Or maybe not as soon as he wanted. I have found in my experience that those who do drugs do so to heal a pain there is no cure for: Self-Loathing. Those smiling faces in the group weren’t mocking me, they were supporting me by saying “dude, we like to hurt ourselves too”. People willing to destroy themselves physically are most likely feeling destroyed mentally already. The fact that he was on Glee and probably had enough money to life the rest of his life doesn’t mean much if you consider that he probably didn’t feel all so hot about himself in recent months. All speculation but could you really imagine a happy drug addict?

Alas, Glee will return in September, without Finn Hudson. And not only will writers have the difficult task of writing the beloved and well developed character out of the show, but the cast will have to perform in the same room where they had once stood with their fallen co-star.